Errrrrrr What?

Im salting my wounds
But the pain almost makes me happy

The Fungus Among Us

Unique
I think
Oh,
you've got me.

You've got me all wrong.

I was made in his Design.
DivineBrillianceandGrayce

Like Him I will Be

Maybe you can find traces of me in others
But This dime
Lives alone in his surroundings.
Ive never found things quite so beautiful
As I did when i was High
Altering perception
For hours on end.
It wasnt ecstacy
It was better
And you will never know until you try

Sure , sure, I believed you

(I actually did).....
(but that's another story)

Yes 'oh yes
Tonite feels like a good night for typing words
And clicks, a humming machine beneath my finger tips.
I will put onto you what has been inside me.
Most will never even be read,
Some get over looked.

Loathed?

Liked?

Deep in thot,
Where in the puzzle do I lie?
The peice that you know exactly where it goes from the beginning,
Or that peice that when youre done you just cant seem to find?
That finishing touch.

Like the hands of a lady.
One that seems so sincere,
Sinister?
No sincere.

Thats the right word.
Now
Back to streaming logic
All hesitation set aside,
I wish you no ill will my love
We are now even
Now give her to me
You made me who I am
is this a line that you write us all.
One and only you. Because you are you in me without me.

Boy, you sure know how to choose'em
Cause you can never let them go.
By god they're all so perfect you could stand them in a row.

Good taste, he has.
And they all tasted great ;-)

Oh Boy.

Hypocrites and Hand grenades

And suddenly it all fell into place.
Two fates sealed.
Each in their own envelope.
But with the same kiss.
Different mail bags,
and different carriers.
I will not say goodbye
But I will miss you
I will not take a chance to ever come back here again.

I know that is a lie.
Lie
Lie Lie
Lie
Lie

It is my home and I will never be gone too long.
Love drives me away,
But i have big plans.

To get myself positioned,
Directly under the stars.
The sky will spin around me,
I won't be dizzy

Will you?

They all resemble me.
Kind of funny.
A fetish?
Yeah, I think so.

Ramble,
I like talking to myself in code.
See what you can interpret.
I'm sure that you might crack it.
No amature am I? Perplexing.
But like I said


Or,
was it......
I dont know exactly.
But we all deserve whats coming to us......

I always want You with Me

each passing day brings me closer to life
each setting sun brings me closer to death

The moon is always full
In step with day and Night
It holds hands with the earth
Our earth
we stare from afar

It lights up and we smile to know its there
a constant reminder that we are not alone

Its comforting to know that someone loves us

Can We Have it Our Weigh

What do I say to that?
Blatantly put.
So elloquently
Like the thots that lay back in my mind.

I repeat it repedatively.
This word and that.
She just stopped,
and I kept going.
I turned around and she was gone.
How i wish she would have stayed.

I do not know her

I do not know her

and for the record. I'll say it one more time
Not allowed, aloud.
But in my mind.

She thinks I don't,
I think I do.

She runs away from all thats hopeful.
I will not be this worker bee
forever.
For I will Make something of myself
for all to see

And I'll have children.
Little me's and her's

How about it?
What has become?

Are we qualified to make all these assumptions,
Or are we just practicing without our Licenses?
I swear that someday I'll amount to something,
But until then I'll live my life through grams and ounces.
40's and 1.5's

When I first awoke

I weighed in @ 9 lbs. 10 oz.
what a big baby
I still am

Amazing ______ (Fill in The Blank)

[Hint: it's the name of a song]

did you think I not know this
I felt every inch of it
pass Before my eyes

I stood in disbelief
And Hid myself from the sun
Its rays scorch the skin

The "power of moonlight" soothes
and so I shall

And we shall
All be happy

I'll be happy
show my teeth
My God She is beautiful

A Higher Plain

once i saw the truth
i wasnt told it
i knew which way to go i couldnt hold it in
now im far from gon
i hold it
not in but let it go
i let it take me

that night i knew the truth
i told it
i wont holdback again i swear.
if youre not going anywhere then where are you

Im not here but there
im somewheres in between
dont lie
and dont assume
all the answers lie within you
im not asking
and im telling you beware
aware
enlightened
lighten your load
good good night
arent they always

its just your outlook that is bad
dont make it
good good good
good vibrations

And Thats Where Ill Rest My Head

as to the querry of the search
That's irrelevant
We leave a data trail anyway

as it is. it is fine

Make your mark
and i'll make mine
Do not be bitter
I am here
I am waiting
i will occupy my time with the world around me
those here and there

and all of them in between
i know of all no's
and yes's

each one granting or denying
the two of us

what we want
Do We know

i dont
yet i do

passing of expression
this one is

half assed
yet deeply sincere

i give it all for eternity
eternally at home

Reign Supreme

i build permanent structures
and you set up camp
i tie knots
and you tie bows

pretty red ones
ones that sparkle and shine
mine are mangled and tough to get out

i cant even get out of them

i can get out of my clothes tho
and i can get yours off

id be proud if i could keep them off
but we all need to cover up
what should we say or do
when should we stop

time to get some sleep
its just the beginning every time we close our eyes

Alike in So many ways

Aren't we all?
You can't help but send Mixed Signals
When you don't know what you want
You're better off just stepping back,
And Looking at what you've got.

You have it all
so stop trying so hard.
I will be there to break the fall.
And i will be strong.
Lord be my guide
For I may Faulter.

Hope.

Meaningless to some

To many,
The world.

Faith.

Blind as a bat.
I send a sign.
Now send it back

Cold Feet

I'm thinking of cutting mine off
I keep thinking
Does it give me Hope
False hope ??
Not one word spoken since.

As to Why

I know there's an answer
I want to get at it.
That answer
I know none of you know what im talking about.
Maybe just one.
We'll leave it that way.
Just like me.
Left in the Dark.

This California sun burns,
And its Freezing outside.
The sky ablaze.
I blaze.
Consumation.
Un-holy Lust.

I like her better when shes mine
Thats when my chest is free to breathe
and my mind is free to think
She put this on my wrist............

WARNING

Some can seem so endearing
Like they will satisfy your every need
But they satisfy their own
It is just an illusion
A 'smoke screen
wave your hand through it

It swirls into nothing
Dissipating into thin air
What once was there
Is no longer

Vanishes it does

I trust
Loosely
Don't set your self up for failure
This is just a warning
Heed my words
But that's all that they are
Words
You should trust yourself
We are in the same boat

Options

She Is Beautiful,
Inside and out.
Nothing can Stop her,
Not even I.

Twas beauty Slain the Beast.

The things I think when I see her,
The softest touch,
I can give with my hands
Firmly tho.
She needs to know I support her.

I can't depend on anything.
Countless nights and days have past.
Who set this spell that I'm under.
And who gets to say when it ends.

Not i Said the blind man.
It wasnt me said the man with the gun.
But watch out i can do something worse.

So i Backed up a little.
I guess a broken heart is better than one thats not beating.
Some would agree,
Yet some would chase it down a hole.
A dark, dark, Tunnel.

Not all.

But i question my reasoning as I stand at it's Entrance.

Anyone in their right mind would have Turned back By now.
So I won't waste my time in taking it.
This last chance.

Do Not Pass Judgement

Tho i may judge you.
I take no action upon it,
and hope you do the same.
This is used as a tool,
To open the mind.
To not hide.
To be seen.
So see Me.
I take that back,
judge me.
But help Me,
as a Friend
Or a lover.
Whichever you may be.
And I shall proceed in the same manner,
co-exist.
Make each other better
and do this for well Being.
The well being of the whole.
Which is him, her, yourself,
Whomever.
Together.
Do not expect,
But be expected of.

Believe that we are one

The Pinch That Cures the Itch (Rightfully Stolen)

"For Title Alone"
If this were anything I had asked for
would I be contented to say thank you?
Would you be inclined to say that I'm welcome?

I want to be.
I want to be accepted and liked,
not attested and hated.
Im not a fighter,
Not physically,
But emotionally.
I am strong.

I want what I can't have
But when I had it I was happy.
Trust that.
Altho,
There are always those suspicions,
The ones that drag you down and doubt your worth,
But hopefully 'they'
As in them.
The ones that you love.
Will see, and re-store your faith
Truthfully
And Specifically.
Special For you.
Your needs are their Demands,
Not litterally,
But in some respect.
They go out of their way to make you
Gold,
Though You are far more precious,
And this they know

Bring yourself to Say it

Rushed Or Hurried?
Not at all.
As if you even made any sense

So discreet
Not even God can aquire the truth.
What does this mean?
Im not allowed to know.
Forbidden Fruit

Think of it as Streaming Logic.
Sentences cut out of thin air.
But dont proceed Until you understand fully.
scissors, no hands,

Snip!

And As it was
It were,
For it will be
until.....The ___

Finish it.
I know you want to.
Slow down and take your time.
Quit moving soooooo fast.
I like that about you,
Enough to put an end to the end.

Familiar,? Does it sound?

I am in your head.
stumbling in the dark
But only a Few Times
For I Know this place.
and there's enough to break my fall.
A big bed,
full of comfort
and warm blankets for the cold,
for the heat,
It keeps me going.........