Sole Purpose

at least now i have something to say
Express
afflict
effect
You should
Be Here
Maybe.

I would keep you safe.

Some shut eye

when i need to i Cant
and when i want to it fails me
sometimes i think that i can but close my eyes only to open them.
when the sun is rising i can and when i need to get up i close my eyes effortlessly it torments me,
sleep
and laughs in my face
masochist in all that I do.
sadist.
Some love mercy
some love pain
where are you?
you might just like it the way youve got it.
And thats fine by me

Get me through this.... FUCK!!!

as you can see
Lately
Ive been struggling
not filled to the hilt with words to spill out
emotion
Less
Regard
Why did you make me so bland
the dismall truth is that i needed it
needed nothing
under grad
under paid
under the influence
what should i do now?
what should i be doing
I fear I have failed.
I fear i have made a bad mark on my page.
But this is here for me
Mine It is and it will always be
look in upon
peer in upon
laugh
and realize what youve known all along
i respect that and so I shall laugh along side you.
I too will smile back. Hello.

not tired

tomorrow is today
the next day we strive to follow
we dont know where our keys are
and our minds are never with us
will you follow me

will you take me with you
i want you to
i want to go where you go
will you touch me
will you make me feel like im amillon dollars
time takes its time
days pass

and i do too
leave me
here in my surroundings
leave me here
to be with you
alone in my space

i need it
i have no trouble with that
its me and the moon

up with the sky

up with the letters
they start with a and end in e

i wont make you
i only want it to be
a lie
and i will taste your lips
live with that
take in all i can
all i can of you

i will just like you

i will kill
with no remorse.
with no thot of whats become
i will leave in the dust,
what has been and now whats done
do not
i dont
and never will again
i tell you
scream you
bastard of a son
a child
a sibling
a symphonic being
be me
be.
me.
intervein
and i will listen
forget and i will thank
i will,

I

will

kill.
cold blooded killer
take me out.
for i will keep
every soul i can

my screen masks,
like all that ive worn
for i am not torn.
im in the greatest place on earth
listen closely
you will hear my worth pound in your head

im ahead
a head
and youre alone
do you get that?

Lead And I will Follow-:-Follow And I will Lead

Not everything has its price
But Last night i par-took in a pastime that does
We Give up one good thing for another
and we dont know what we had until its gone

I had better feel better by monday morning
that marks the day that i begin to run
Run for my life from the demons
that chase me

I will sweat out the fear and take back all I can
I will quit breathing in darkness and exhaling smoke
if not forever.

Then until the sun retreats early again
but I hope that in time
I will be back inside of her

the future is written
on back of these hands

That cling tightly to,
desire,
memories, maturity
annuity. fertility
insight
a cure for the able and willing
i wish you well my
sweet survivor
pushing on in a state of all states
a country among countries that can effect
the whole world

you are here and I am here
and I Am a constant
although the only constant is change
we can build a better being if we change in the right ways
do not forget or block out what
puts into perspective
the life that we lead
and the life that leads us

Who What Where When Why

i sit in the sun thats made its mark across my back
and the ocean churns slowly with each passing breath
the waves compete constantly in a contest of anger
pushing and pulling the land

the girl who put an X on my soul
Has brought out all I tried to hold in
Though introvertedly solemn
I still seem to be

Ive been touched by the warmth and the grayce of her hand
In time i will realize all that it meant
Until then I will strive to
Better

Better a whole
better it all
everything has its purpose
its time in the sun
Its time to shed light on the darkness of night
a beacon
a hope
a fire ablaze

so burn
burn out not fade away

I will walk your line until my feet bleed
and I become weary

It seems i am destined for solitude
for just as long as ive been along side of you
I now have been walking alone