Alone???? You tell me

So hopefull
an imposter

stealing
thievery and spite

in case you dont want to look
ill spell it out

and day by day the thots progressed

are we headed in the right direction?
Well I dont know captain
It sure seems the right of way
Well Dammnit im in charge
yes sir you are right
Well i already know the answer
Uhh sir?
you asked the question
God dammnit i told you to be quiet already!
Shut the Fuck up you idiot
Im not going crazy!!!!
Who said that

Thats it turn this boat around
Sir youre driving

Youre making me angry

Do I have to do everything myself?!


Ahh now thats more like it
The scenery is so picturesque
oh and those quaint little houses
how they remind me of America and my youth
My childhood.

Are we headed in the right Direction??
...
.....
.......
.........
Well are we???
Somebody??? Answer me !!!!!!

Hello?

Is anybody there

Without bindings,Null the senses,Lash out against the sensless,Add the least amount of sentiment

all Ive ever really longed for was freedom
Abound in hopes and ways
Teeming hilts the madness
so riden
lost
and safe
Condemn the other side
oppose sit
surely
will this fail?

On the other hand
Naked flesh
afoot
aloof in height
not fit for flight
they all come right before the other
in a boat
under the stars

if you dont ...
..... .. ....
Im not sure
im never sure
are you a safe bet

rather hopeful

Well I can never find you
So heres to looking
I think im gonna go and buy a bottle

That wont help my mindset
But it beats sitting on my ass another hour

At least in 20 minutes i'll be happy

And for a day
so far away
so long ago
i miss the ocean and it's smell

Stuck living here
a slave to no-one
but living here is almost worse than I could tell
Im not living lightly
not seeing blindly
not asking questions
never getting a reply

Please dont excite me
i get excited easily
and for the record i just seemed inclined
to catch you

that time you called me
out of the blue
i was taken back
its been long since ive been high

Fear and self Loathing

After another breakdown and Blow-up
I'm still not sure if you understand me

But i know
I understand myself better
And,
this world that surrounds me.
I'm ascending this ladder

Age,

Plays me better than you do

So I choose to walk this world alone,
Im at home

in my comfortable surroundings

Finding relief,
in reposeable sanctions

Sweet sweet sincerity

oooooWeeeeee
just look what you do ta me
look at the ashes ive formed
a speckle
some sin
and a light from within
paper lamps that are now on the floor


There was a party
a welcome home party
and everyone you knew was invited.
Luckily they all didn't show

Well luckily the ones that didn't like you
Didn't show
As for the rest of them they were all there.
Your brothers and your neices
Nephews, Aunts, uncles
Children
Mothers and fathers
the ones you missed and the ones you hate
Tho they needed to see you
your face altho you attest their very pressence
It's not their fault you say
But get them away from me

Just try to be nice
O.K. It was a good time and now the suns up
Everyone par-took and once the littles were asleep
It all really begun
Drugs for days
seeping into spines and veins
Dropping breathing
Hits and inhilation
Water
Beverage
Alcohol
And whiskey
beer and wine
sake and vodka
minus landing on the ground
As everyone flew
THe awakening was just as bitter.

Indigenous Tribes of North America : The Western Hemisphere but mainly Central California

I grow more and more like you
Every day
Distant
En-guard

Yet in-depth and slightly focused
on which might blurrrrrrrrr the senses

Sometimes I sit and Stare
blankly I can see
But the light behind my eyes blinds my mind
My mind's eye

If it would only come to me
Those newly formed bonds
not broken

Well
I wish you well
My willing well
(I know thats not mine)
(but i like his play on werds)
(Claudio)

Cloudy-O

O.K.
Now for the thriller

Take me as you wish
More over
How you please

Please?

Recumbent

Or suggestive of repose
I guess i'll take this lying down
I'm not afraid
ive just got problems facing fears

And falling asleep
Maybe i'll read

I want to
But music soothes my ears
I like to sing along as well

Altho it keeps me way too occupied
Especially this mix
Onew after another
Something to keep me going
Something i actually like
That makes all the difference

Too bad I cant sing at work

Oh-well
Ill get by
and get along

My dreams last night were intense
If I could only share.

One last sonfg and then i'll shut my eyes
good morning sunshine
Goodnight my nightmare