Tried to be avoided

I catch feelings these days
like i catch a case
usually nothing really feels
and if it does
im in the moment
and then its gone
it goes away

like times i didnt mean to have
and goin simply with the wind
the whim of the momment
and the starkest of feelings left behind

its not even yours though

that which was given
to you

and you havnt even given it back
nor abandoned it

I felt sorry
i feel sorry
i caught feelings
I caught a rapp
I got caught slipping
And got left caught up

i dont even think i
TRIED TO GRAB IT
now
I dont even know which side is up
because
for surely I was down
and still am

yet you know exactly how much this helps
and it does