Of what I've Become

In the very least
I had time to make the best
Altho I couldnt reach you

Like you say

we show ourselves sparingly
By chance of conviction
By happening
I have no big words to express it encoded
Only commonly used diction
Thats straight to the point
To the point of my existance
The reason my heart beats

The thump in my chest
that rises and falls with each passing breath

My Head can rest peacefully as i sleep on your bestowment
If life will let me live
I will
and I will never forget

overly used But never losing its intensity or intent
I love you
It simply exists without question

A quick Kiss Goodbye

Insanity...
What effect beauty can have on me.
Not like any other
Unlike all that I know
I know nothing of what i speak of
I want to learn
I long to hold
In my arms
Tightly bound to yours
Have I been hosed
Is this one sided Yearning
Or Does my Lust serve a purpose
One I will never see
Nor
Bennefit from
im not sure
Not too sure at all
But I still have It
And it isnt going anywhere
I cannot simply turn it off
Or Look the other way
I can cope
And all I hope is to Someday be free

Symmetry

Both sides are Perfect
Complimenting each other
Perfect

I like to get going
to get gone
to get on top of things and direct the show

To be in control
When I have none i Feel Tormented like the world is spilling over
Stop! Pouring
cant you see its had enough
The glass is full
Do not fill it past its means
that is just a waste
excess is unnecessary
It is un needed
un clean
Not like the Lord
It is of the devil
of the lowest form
Do not heed the words of the devil
of the dark

I heed my own label
my own fist
Risen into the air
a symbol of ad version
An adversary

Al tho I do not know what side I want to be on
I can make no decision
For I am at odds with all I do

Do not make a scene
Be the seamstress you Have been and sew me threads of Fertile Wombs
and Fertile men
A fertile Man
A love
A Life
A Life Long Love

Beautiful?.........
Will you?

O' Say you shall

Sign me in and hand me over
like i meant something to you
like you thought all that you wanted
would be shiny and un-used

But Oh
contrary
I have be-fallen for something i never thought i would fall for
falling
fallen
falsified documentation
Mis-Representation
of the living
the damned
the Hurt, Confused
Those misserably in misery
I strive to hold my head high
Hold My hand
Hold My heart
My Organ
Pumping life into lifeless veins
Be that
and Be

Knocked off my Rocker

My axis has been tilted
There is no structure to keepit upright
Night Becomes Day
And Day, Night
The will of the willing holds no weight now
Only the Here and Now are worth willing my soul for
so come here
Now
And do not waste anymore time
I shall give to you
and It will be done
I can keep waiting
altho it conflicts my well being

Foresight and Hindsight

Finally some New Substance to revell over
Some New text to ponder and out-wit
a challenge
something better than these dismal days of freedom

Had we not been set loose we would not know what to expect
these days to come
with spring drawn to a close and the sun beating
It will be hot here
and
It will be hot there
Both of these valleys are an attestment of the living
stand
here
there
with me, beside me
And I will conquer them all
with the sun
and the moon
the waves and the clouds
see to it that we all shall prosper
In this golden age of summer
I will be waiting
I will return
Will you
My love?
will you?

Only Correspondence

And so it goes.

I guess it wasnt meant to be.

Ive been misled
Another time,
By
Sweet Sincerity.

There is nothing I can ask you that you might give me

What I want I cannot ask for
So Ill retire without speaking
I need to go back into silence
Only letters can express it entirely

Where's the Exit?

So how are you doing?
She Asked
"Full of torment" and I closed my eyes
I guess theres Not much else to say
Or Not much sympathy to get
No theres no Sympathy for the devil
I 'm not going to ask
Its just i thought i had it coming
Well, look at you

youre always thinking wrong
You'd do yourself a little better not expecting nothing
I just dont like giving up
Nor Giving in